little · madling

i haven't posted, or even been on here in a million years. i really regret that now, because i don't know what's happening in anyone's life anymore :(

i'm going to mexico from the 21-28 but if i can see anyone of you before i go, i'd love that. if not, then we have the whole summer.
i've been thinking of all my friends i haven't seen in a long time, and how much i miss all of you, and how weird it is not to know what is happening in your lives. all of you: theresa, lauren, anna, amanda,heather, claire-- you are all holy. you are all in my thoughts constantly, and i want you all back in my life! in person! i miss all your voices, and pretty faces,and everything about you.

love love love. i'm sending it your way.

I'm trying so hard to let go...and evolve.
I need to do my school work
I need to finish what I start
I need to write more freely
I need to tune in, turn on, drop out, yeah Timtohy Leary-like
I need to give away all my clothing
and live in the forest
I need to make things with my hands, even if they're awkward and ugly
I need to change my appearance
and my mindset
I need to play with someone everyday

most of all, I need to stop talking and start doing.

I purloined this from ohruby, it's pretty simple. There are eight sections. Each section has a list of phrases numbered.
Pick one phrase from each to correspond with a digit of your D.O.B. (American or Scottish version. Doesn't matter.)

Mine is: 07/26/1989

The Steel Hound
She was a wild voluptuary
But no more!
A mage of evil renown will seek her out
In the world of MidTolkienlandmas
A legend will be born
The empire will burn
Will the stench of death wash away

Section one:

0: The Steel Hound.
1: The Wild Dragon.
2: The Rebel King.
3: The Ghost Warrior.
4: The Highlander.
5: Lord of the Sky.

Section two:

0: He/She has a dark and bloody past
1: He/She fought His/Her way up from poverty
2: He/She was a quiet, peaceful Man/Woman
3: He/She could always hear the wails of the damned
4: He/She was a mighty hero/heroine
5: He/She was running from a dark enemy
6: He/She had a dangerous quest
7: He/She was a wild voluptuary
8: He/She roamed with the beasts
9: He/She came from across the sea

Section three:

0: but/and this was no time for peace
1: and now the world would quake with fear
2: but no more!
3: with no regrets
4: and learned to hate
5: and danced with the faerie folk
6: and rode a mighty dragon
7: but the Gods had more in mind
8: in a time of chaos
9: in a storm of epic proportions

Section four:

0: Now He/She must learn to fight for love
1: The world is in tumult
2: A dark queen is rising
3: The North wind has begun
4: The evil emperor has returned
5: A cursed book will change it all
6: A mage of evil renown will seek Him/Her out
7: The serpent is rising
8: An army is gathering
9: A sword has been forged

Section five:

1: In the world of MidTolkienlandmas

Section six:

9: A legend will be born

Section seven:

6: No soul is too old
7: The hills will fall
8: The empire will burn
9: A frozen soul will thaw

Section eight:

0: Can He/She put aside her past
1: Will good triumph
2: Can good beat out this fire
3: Will evil rot it's soul
4: West must beat East
5: Evil will reign
6: The weavers of time have a plan
7: Can He/She avoid the bounty hunters
8: But no one will believe Him/Her
9: Will the stench of death wash away
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I hate being forced to waste my time writing personal statements for English when I could be writing poetry, or talking to Amanda, or seeing Heather before she leaves...

I love all my friends ♥

preparing to apply for college is depressing.
mainly because everyone else is going away, and I'll still be stuck in Livermore, going to community college because I didn't do well enough or try hard enough in math. bascially because I am a fuck up, and the burn out among my friends.
brag lists only make me realize I have nothing to brag about.

I just ordered black, white, and cotton candy-pink Ray Bans on Amazon.

I am SUCH a scenester cliche. *le sigh*

But what can I say, ever since Peter Sellers and Roy Orbison, Ray Bans have captured my fashion admiration. And the pinkies will be the ULTIMATE Weetzie sunglasses. Especially for days when I can't handle the ultra-hot pink Weetzie cat-eye glasses I already have.

Also, I am working 1-6 tomorrow, which sort of blows, becuase it's my first day free of groundation, but is also tres bon, because I get paid time and a half. :D
Hopefully an epic quest to Berkeley and SF to thrift shop and get pierced is imminent.

also, Irina Lazareanu is my new fashion hero. she is amazing. this could be why she's dating Sean Lennon.

I fall in love with everyone in the middle of the night.

So apparently now I have a job.

I went in for an interview at Peet's today, and everything was going swimmingly, and
I thought, oh, they'll probably do what Target did to me, you know, 'we'll call you in a week to let you know if you're hired or not. because we like to fuck with people's emotions.'
but then Jay (who was interviewing me) was like "I really want to hire you. can you start come in tomorrow?"

hell yes, Jay. hallelujah.

so beginning at 7 am tomorrow I am officially a Peet's employee. woot.

I am alive.

I feel like shit for not being competent enough to organize the Cabby-celebrating lunch yet. Someone help me. Maybe everyone interested should come meet me at my house or Panama and we (i.e. me and more importantly also some people considerably more skilled at organizing these things) can make this happen before school starts up for everyone. Lauren Swift, I want your phone number.

I also need to make time for a belated birthday party for me sometime before summer ends. meh.

aside from these vexations, and my serious non-writingness this summer, life is good.

yesterday and today spent with Lily (formerly Rita) Cara and Dylan. Miss C&D already. My heart just overflows with love for those two. I need to see them more.
Lazy days at the aquarium sith them are love. even when there is no cuttlefish anymore.
and I never got to tell the cute boy in the wheelchair how cute he was.

I need a boy of my own.